Inner self.

I don't need anybody, see?
I just need myself to be with me.

My inner self which drives me.
Which does not take a break from trying me.

Which has a great sense of humor.
Which makes my stomach hurt with laughter.

Which gives me advice to make things right.
Which leads me to places bright.

That inner self with its stupid little voice.
That inner self which is always right.

Which likes to write lame poems.
Which loves to read that crazy stuff.

That inner self which i seem to have lost.
Which i am trying hard to find wit all the strength i have got.

That inner self which is still eluding me.
Without which i cant complete this.

To give..

Like a flower among the weeds, beautiful but still a waste.

Like an animal in a cage, ferocious with no freedom.

Like a single tree in a building, growing alone with no wind to seek.

Like a cool breeze blowing over empty lands.

Like a life lead, with so much to give but no one to take.

Is it that hard to be kind?

So, I was reading this post. It has a story on how its important to be kind than to be clever. I have always been a kind person. Yup, I just wrote "been". I found it very easy to be kind. But these days, this place, this stress. I think it tires everyone out. Now I feel good if somebody shows kindness or is just plain nice to me and the word "kind" has a new meaning to me.

If a auto driver takes me to the place where I want to go and does not ask me to pay extra telling me this long story about how he cannot get customers after he drops me off or just because its after 7pm or before 6am, I feel the auto driver is kind when he takes me to my destination and I pay exactly the amount on the meter. :) . Sometimes I feel so happy that I even pay extra or tell them to keep the change. :)

When I go into a shop and the shop keeper just shows me what I ask for with a little bit of interest then I feel he is being very kind. If the shop keeper does not make a face when I see a few stuff and don't buy anything, I feel good.

I used to feel bad when I saw people selling fruits on the streets. I had made a habit of buying from them and not from stores like Food World or Reliance Fresh. I just wanted to give a little back to the world which had given so much to me. Well, I was cheated with fruits rotten inside and sometimes a rotten apple in their midst which I had not even selected, over ripe bananas and all of these over priced. Now I just buy fruits from Reliance fresh or some other place like that.

Now, coming back to myself, being kind has been wiped off of my system. But I want to give back and am still a loyal customer to that shop keeper who showed a little concern and pray for the happiness of that auto driver who dint pinch off any extra bucks from me and now I take an oath on being kinder and nicer to everyone around me and not to be a pain in the ass like some people I know. I realized that however bad my mood might be, a few kind words "to" someone rather than "from" someone always helps to cheer me up.

And I put forth this question to everybody out there. Is it that hard to be kind, to be a little nice ? When it can actually help you a lot ?

P.S : My net connection had been terminated so could not blog and I am extremely sorry to my sincere (if there are any) readers out there.

Here to stay....

Ok, I have been wanting to write for a long time now, but whenever I pick up the pen or sit down with my laptop, my mind goes blank. I keep getting these ideas about what my coming-back-to-blogging post would be but before I reach a place where I can write it down, the ideas are gone.. puff!!.. So I had a great idea to start my post with this and see where it goes from here.. Hmmm, lets see.

I see that my followers count has increased. It seems to happen every time I stop blogging, so welcome to bad posts and lame poetry (That's just me trying to make you say "Aw.. your poems are good they are not lame." and then I'll conclude that I write bad posts :) :D .( Just kidding ) ( And for all those who don't know, I love writing inside brackets. I feel that its the place where people really speak their mind out  :) )).

I am in Bangalore. Its been 9 months now. Had a hectic 6 months of training with at least 14 hours in the office even on Saturdays and Sundays but not 14 hrs just 12 hrs :). No need of sympathies because I loved it. From 3 months I have been a freee birdy. I count my 8 hours and work accordingly. Yet to get familiar with the place and when I do I'll write more.

To all the people who are attending the blogger's meet on 4th Aug in Bangalore. I'm coming. I know its not a big thing or anything but I am just happy because its my very first one :) :).

And here I am again awkwardly ending my posts as usual. Here I am to stay. :) :)

TaTa for now.. Have a great weekend..

Hiya Everybody..

The new thing is that I have joined a company and I am undergoing training. I love being busy and having a hectic 6 days of a week. So I deem myself lucky to be in a busy and hectic training program. So I'll be around but not as much as I used to. I have not commented on so many many posts and not read oh so many posts of the blogs I follow. I miss doing that so I hope you are all missing me too people. (Has anyone really noticed?? :( ).

Right now I am down with a fever. I seem to be the mother ship of all those fever causing viruses. They feel they are honor bound to come and rest in me every month or so. Grrrr....

So, anyways I have got so many things to do now. Packing, moving to a paying guest. Preparing for tomorrow's training. :) :). Adios amigos.. :) :) I will be back.. Soon I hope.. :) :)
Take care ya all.. :) :)